POST BREAK UP

At first, you don't feel anything at all.

After a following days, you started to miss him.

Then you find yourself reminiscing all the memories you've shared with him: the happiness - his smile, jokes and even his cute eyes and the way he moves when he laughs.

You started to appreciate him more.

Then after that you just begin to cry.

You're crying because you missed him.

You missed him so much.

And there's a fight in you. One who whispers, you should go back to him. And the other one keeps on shouting, it is better off this way! 

You missed him.

You missed him so bad.

But you have to choose.

Your own independent self

Or

Yourself when you are with him?

But then, you remembered it.

The reason why it has come to an end.

And even if you keep on reminding yourself that reason, you always ended up to wanting him more.

More.

More of him.

And a question pops out, is it really love or is it obsession?

Because at first you don't feel a thing. You really don't mind. You even act like as if nothing happened. Like it is just another normal day.

But as the time goes by - 
as you realize it is not the same anymore: you realize that you don't talk to him like the way it was before, you're not with him (who's with him?) You can't see his laughs and smiles (who makes him smile? who entertains him?) 

You realize that he is not with you,

that's the time you will hear you heart break.

And even if you had this experience a million times, it still hurts like "hell".


Because you are so obsessed with finding someone to love you. Because you can't love yourself.